hello everyone at home!
I have been talking to some of you a lot about what’s happening here and some not at all, and how the switch from Guyana to Trinidad came about, as we learn more details and what the project in Trinidad has unfolded like so far... or rather... what has been easy and what has been extremely difficult so far.
Our original program was cancelled in Guyana because of a lack of proper organization. Ironically the plan was then too put us in Trinidad where absolutely no planning had occurred as of yet. This meant that our program in a squatters camp in Guyana, that was highly developed in terms of tasks, social orientation and objectives, was thrown out because of bad logistical planning and we ended up with a program that had great logistical planning, but very few interesting components to the program, a more church based (specifically a colonial prestige about having white people in the church visiting, and doing some stuff) program that we had not agreed to nor were comfortable with that had leadership with a non existent adjustment period to plan our program properly. It also put us in a different work environment completely with programming that focused on fitting us in places we weren't really needed or useful, with some phenomenal/meaningful programming built in here and there.
The glory of hindsight; next time just cancel the program.
The potential for a great program exists in Trinidad, and we had an excellent week at a senior’s home this week. So it is not that Trinidad or the Presbyterian Church of Trinidad and Tobago is not a wonderful space for ecumenical work. It is simply that this program was put together too short notice, and ended up differing too much from what we expected, and we did not feel safe with the organization in charge’s responses to issues.
We communicated this to the United Church of Canada, i must applaud them and their comforting emails, kind calls, and support. They were committed to working the program out if it was possible, and once they saw that at this point it was not, they asked what day do you want to fly home. Through a great network of friends we have made here, who are amazing! We do have commitments we enjoy, and things we like in our program exist. So we didn't want to leave until we had fulfilled at least in part the majority of those commitments somehow (ex; presents for a home for abused children we spend time with weekly, that we'll no longer see; board games, sports stuff etc. clothing drive for a home for abused woman who are now recovering from substance abuse and finding new coping strategies that promote healing, etc.)
This trip however has been a huge learning experience for me! And we have made so many wonderful friends!!! I will cherish them always! It has not been a failure, even though it is being terminated a third of the way in. I have learnt a lot about what cross cultural exchanges can look like. I have practiced carrying myself calmly into situations where I feel I am being disrespected and trying hard to not become disrespectful myself (close to always successfully but not quite) I have also, again reflected on how much more useful we as people are at home, in our own context, where we don't need to learn the culture to do the work, and feel invigorated to stay home (Canada) and do some of the work I’ve always wanted to there.
And so... what now
I am sad that the project here is ending on many levels; the parts of the project that were interesting were to be occurring in January and February. It is too bad it wasn't that third of the program we got. In this sadness, I was brainstorming on how Miriam and I could do some of what we were excited about for January and February at home.
After all we both planned to be in Caribbean all Winter... so we don't have any plans.
So what about a city exchange within Canada.
What’s perfect about it is Miriam is considering U of W so she can take a spring class there and see if its for her! She has the same asthma triggers that I have allergies, and, both our parents are on board!
We can volunteer in each other's cities with one another and get involved with a lot of the organizations and so forth we have always wanted to be but never had the time for. We NOW HAVE THE TIME!
The world is so beautiful and mysterious
As more details develop I will keep you posted, feel free to email me ideas J
Dates in Winnipeg are March 25- May 25